Not Just A Dream.

Everyone close to me knows the fact that I SUCK at saving money, like seriously!
You can see now, I'm dead broke.
*opens the wallet, moths fly~
I am such a weakling twirp.

Thus, the feeble attempt to start a little business in order to help (somewhat) minimise my financial sufferings! And for now, I've started with selling off my kesayangan clothes. *sobsob* And my first customer is the bestie girl aka the girl next door, cannot tell her name here. Thank you for at least interested with my kesayangan. But, you bought almost 70% of my dearly clothes, fuck you! Grrr~

Here's the thing, I have already sold 2 tops, a cropped blazer/sweater (my all-time favorite yo), a beautiful dress I bought at I Love Bazaar for once that I only wear for trying purpose(!) , 2 jeans (I did wear those only twice!), a hot pants that is still virgin, and the last thing is my cotton baju kurung that I absolutely wanna get rid of. And they were only cost her not more than 150 MYR! Damn, she's so lucky to have a super cool friend like me, really! Told ya, I'm so easy to please~

I'm (literally) a better buyer than a seller.
I'm basically screwed! As screwed as fuck.

I should opt for selling things that I definitely hate because I can't imagine surrounding myself with such beautiful things makes me want to buy more than the buyers were to. F*ck me. I will not be stormed and surprised that if my boy decide to prepare a treatment/intervention for me. Kill me.

Though I still think that I don't really sell a 'decent' items for, I thought who the fuck cares, what's stopping me from starting it?? Oh well, I'll start small, but at least I've started it! I'm just wanna get some money, this is only option I have now to keep me survive.. Heck, I'm truly sad for my loss.. :/

I am THAT shallow!


After all much of my bloody emo crap, I've finally got rid of it.
And I've got 3 free tickets entering the goddamn snow thing-a-magicka at I-City!
'Twas MAGIC to say the least. Yay!!!
(I-City and I, never be apart ey? Heh.)

And I surely chose Loverboy to accompany me. And the other one ticket was not a waste! We sold it for 15 MYR, the selling price is 25 MYR. Not bad for my magic selling this time around huh! Oh well, if I sell them to the closed ones, I definitely will be easy melting like a fucking ice-creams..

I still got another magics the other day, made me smile.
*still smiling even writing it*
And this time around, the dream weren't just a dream.
We really have our own castle, with a magical snowflakes, living like a king & queen (no longer a prince & princess!) and the fabled happily ever after?

I felt like I was the Cinderella/Snow White/Rapunzel or Snow White, uhh..you name it! (it shows the least fairy tale I ever know) Heh.
And he was the king~
Am insane as it is.

Since 1 picture = 1 000 words, I loaded a bunch of pics instead :)

Muka gila happy coz I'm in the igloo~
So cute.
Don't make a cute face, please?
I'm regret not trying this one.
I shall blame myself for not wearing something thick/warming.
I wore a sheer legging for god's sake.
Padan muka.
The queen?
The servant.
Penggali snowflakes is much better.. HAHA!
"Lihatlah rumah saya!"
Spot the queen of elephants. Heh.
He likes play with the horse butt.
And waiting for the horseshit out eh?
No caption needed.
Peace, no WWIII!
B*rak on the huge ass grasshopper!
I want a pet just like this, the real one.
That would be so cool.
I want it SO badly!
No caption needed.
And this, I want this!
*with eye closed, feel his heartbeat*
Pity panda~
Was waiting my magical unicorns at the magical tree!
I could freeze to death in this damn castle!
The face shows the pain...
I so want this for our little princes & princesses.

My favorite snapshot to date:

I love that cute gloves.
Makes me wanna visit our magical castle, again!

I know, I'm still stuck with my financial woes.
But who doesn't have??
With piles of that problems in my way, I'm pretending that I don't have any.
*flying kick perut sendiri*
Shall looking forward to the debut of my blogshop.
Stay tuned!

The darling has already planned a bunch of things to do for the new year's eve.
And I may not able to be there.
Hmmm. :(
As long as I'm with the boyfriend, I'll be damn happy! :)


Last Day of Magic.

I am on track! Literally.
I've just got my life back.
Thank god~
Unfortunately, it's may be our last day of magic.
Just maybe...
I hope I still get another chances.

'Twas Christmas's night. Kinda sombre as we don't have any plans. But...'twas magical night to remember! I felt like my head has filled with dreams of castle in the sky, magical unicorns and the fabled happily ever after. (e.g : Cinderella) Am I sound crazy? Oh well, I don't care!

The night we spent pigging out McD (again, his treat!) and the most remarkable moment; off to the nearest playground (somewhere in Taipan, cannot visit in SA, bahaya!) just for a few minutes on the swings were the one of the brightest and happiest moment ever I have. Really.

He was so cute.
See what he did;

His devil's stick fries.

Look what we did at the playground...

Did a 'lil camwhoring, as always.
Do not laugh.
My favorite snapshot to date!
Nak kena gigit ke?

Gedik swing.
*flips hair*
I can't even sit properly on it :/
The playground, Loverboy and I.


And on every visit you'd remind me that if I go high enough, I can be one with the skies. When I'm reach there, I'm free, nothing can touch me and be scared of. Even as a child I was, I understood that it was one of the best and the most craved after feeling there is in the world; to be untouchable. I miss that feeling, even now. Insane as it is, I believed every word because it actually felt like it was.....oh so true. I felt the carefree freedom then, still do now-sometimes. Maybe I'm not so jaded after all? Maybe that's why I will suddenly find myself in random playgrounds when I needed reassurance that the world ain't that bad. But nowadays, I don't usually go in the middle of the night alone. I'll ask him to keep me accompany. Since I'm so fucked up now, what is the better place to get away anyway?

It gave the happiest rejoicing in my life. I'm glad we made a visit last night. Call it as a magic. Not forgetting the swing. My favorite swing is no longer, only the frame remains, hasn't a lone metal chain. But thank god, a swing in the other end of the playground was still inviolate. Even I did fear that the chains would snap with my fat ass on it, I went as high as it may go.. Bliss~

My favorite playground (near my house) is now a dump. Yes it is, I shall never deny that now can I? But it is my dump! Our dump. And for god's sake, the magic still remains. We're still the same. The playground and I. Amongst the wear and tear, I believed we both still have our sparks. :)

Merry Christmas everyone.

(p/s: Last day of magic. Not~)


The Somewhere.

Today's rants:

Haters gonna hate.

Liars gonna lie.

Stalkers gonna stalk.

Perverts gonna perve! (pun intended)

I seem to be telling that to myself a lot lately.
Prolly won't get to stop too, ever. :/

I'll never trust you. With who? Why? I'll never tell.
I certainly detest being super fucking nice to everybody.
I am so over it.
Because I know I'll get nothing in return.
So back off!

People should mind their own fucking business.


It's been awhile...
Sorry for my disappearing act.
Been very busy with wedding events, holidays, and my boring life~
I should stop playing those stupid games!
And the hibernating.
Urgh, I couldn't help it.. Heh.

It's been a total anomaly, the last three weeks or so. Since the degree results were out, I haven't been at my best, health wise, since I usually plume myself for being the most healthy one. Fuck it. So......this is how it feels like. I think I can't write anymore. My journals have been lack in updates and I seem to be failing in writing any shit. I jumble up my words, lose my train of thoughts before I turn off the lights, threading together immature sentences that are so rottenly..lame. It still puzzles me to no end how this can be so painfully volatile. Not to say that I'm frail. Just unlucky, perhaps.

Where have all my insane sacrosanct vibes gone to?
Please come back.

Anyhow, it's quite obvious that I've been terribly stressed out. That...and the fact that I've lost the mood to do anything with the piles of problems in my way.. I know I still have many things to do but I was too darn lazy to get to it. *bash head on wall*

Thank god, I had finally resolved those pesky problems. :)
I should thank to my dearly Farah. THANK YOU!
I owe you one.

Malacca, here I come~

I will upload of some cool snapshots soon..


Halcyon (?)

Holidays are only ever good for two things: Losing yourself in endless conversations over reassuring delirium. And...hollering out to no end. *flips hair*

Have been ghastly busy outing with the darlings right after the Malacca trip.
A jovial weekend to no end. Heh.
And now, movie time..
With my favorite people, of course.
We've been best buddies since forever!
*shows baby pics of Miza, Aznie and me*

So here is last day's recap:
I suck at being nerd.
I love them.

We chose Hantu Kak Limah blablabla simply because :
-They desperately wanna watch it. 3 vs 1, I can't win now can I?
-It may required less brain power to follow the story line since I've been fucked up lately.
-We heard that it's a laugh. After days trapped in a dark gloomy day, why the fuck not?
-I was lame in movie updates lately, alas, I was just follow their choice. Thus, no complaints.

But I couldn't help myself now! To be quite frank, it just wasted my dosh away, ! I (strictly!) will never watch a Malay crap movie, ever. Why don't you guys wait patiently for the next hari raya, the goddamn Astro Ria (or whatever the fuck else) surely would air that movie again. Sheesh! Better watch it at home alone rather than hear those pesky screaming of the audience. F*ck. I admit, I do shriek & squeak too, but not that hard lah. But then, if they still wanna scream the fuck out, it's their prerogative. No offence. 'Twas a splendid night though. Thank you guys for kidnapping me that day.




Happy happy, joy joy..
*do victory dance!*

The examination results are already out. (on the 9th.)
I've thought the results will be out on 10th.
But heck, some of my friends have already got their result.
And I was still sleeping.
*flying kick muka sendiri*

I hope the lucky radiating through me.
Even if it was not like I imagined it to be, but at least no Cs.
I thank God. *send a silent thank you prayer*
Thank you Ayah & Emak for supporting me ALOT.
Thank you Sayang who's really understand me and have to hear ALOT of my rantings!
Thank you lecturers.
Thank you friends.
I love all of you.
I owe you one!

I've finally finished my diploma.

The thing that bothered me was, UiTM sent us the results via email this sem. T.T
But unfortunately, I gave the email address to UiTM awhile back that I'm no longer use.
Heck, I've totally forgot the password! Lupa!
So, I have to re-open the email by answering their Qs.
Where's your honeymoon?
Bali. (correct!)
What is your first pet's name?
I answered 'Miu Miu'. (wrong!)
I'm crushed.
*my heart just shattered again writing this*
Such a pathetic blob.
Then I remember Estelle. (correct!) Finally!!
How come I forgot 'Estelle'?
*bash head on wall*
I missed her.
If only Ayah allows me to have 'my own species' in the house..
Tsk tsk.

Oh well, I still can have my own house.
With my own cats!
One fine day~

PS: Congrats to all of my friends, see you guys again in next year (convo!)
PPS: Up next; the degree results! *gulp*


Invisible things.

Warning: Picture heavy post!

This is really funnay!
It makes me laugh, HARD!