When will I see you again
You left with no goodbye
Not a single a word was said
No final kiss to seal any sins
I had no idea in the state we were in

I know I have a fickle heart
And a bitterness and a wandering eye and a heaviness in my head

But don't you remember
Don't you remember
The reason you left me before
Baby, please remember me once more

When was the last time
You thought of me
Have you completely erased me from your memory
I often think about where I went wrong
The more I do the less I know

I gave you the space so you could breathe,
I kept my distance so you would be free,
And hope that you find the missing piece,
To bring you back to me..

Why don't you remember?
Don't your remember?
The reason you left me before
Baby, please remember me once more

When will I see you again..?


In The Arc Of Your Mallet

Don't go anywhere without me.

Let nothing happen in the sky apart from me,

or on the ground, in this world or that world,

without my being in its happening.

Vision, see nothing I don't see.

Language, say nothing.

The way the night knows itself with the moon, be that with me.

Be the rose nearest to the thorn that I am.

I want to feel myself in you when you taste food, in the arc of your mallet when you work, when you visit friends, when you go up on the roof by yourself at night.

There's nothing worse than to walk out along the street without you.

I don't know where I'm going.

You're the road, and the knower of roads,

more than maps, more than love.

-Mevlana Jalaluddin Rumi


Raya... (Blurghhh)

Raya.. Raya! RAYA!!
(Apa tu raya?)

There's only one thing about raya that I like the most, every time..
Is non-stop eating.
And oh! Not forget to mention, bullying time~

I came to realise when I see everyone was busy uploaded a raya snapshots. But my raya was another story la for sho! I didn't even take a pic of myself on the first raya, I was too busy eating at the dapur, MAKAN! Even while the visitors came to the house, I still can't stop eating and even had joined them eating.. Buruk perangai.

Of rendang, lemang, sambal kacang, nasi beriyani, and OH! kuih raya~
One word; HEAVEN!

A friend on Facebook asked me where's my raya pictures..
So here goes my boo boo snapshots.

First of all, I want to brag to the world my new baby.
I have seven pairs actually.
But I love this the most.
Merely because the height is higher than others.
Super grow!
Ayah told me that I don't have to wear them since I'm already tall.
Eh? (means I don't care)

Opted to snap a pic of the shoe only.
Since my face was as pale as a ghost.
Didn't even bother to put on a make up.
Nampak sgt pemalasnya.


2. Okay, this one is really cute.
Mother and father.
(Okay, no pun intended eh.)


3. Her name is Syuhaida.
She is my little cousin.
Annoyingly cute kiddo.
Not friendly.
Always be a weeper.

Whereas I'm an expert in bullying job.

Okay fine I did bully her till she cries.
Haha! *cue evil face!*
No lah, I didn't do that, 'twas because she fell off in the small drain.


4. She's my twin.
Not really a twin lah, simply because of our locks are looking similar.
Shinny and groovy~ Vah!

She's Umairah.
A little cousin.
And please now that she's a gymnast.
So as her older sister, Izzati.

This is Aliya.
Boyish but still cute.
Always helped me in bullying Syuhaida, weaker.

And oh, Umairah and Aliya is sibling.

I asked her if she wants to be a gymnast too.
But I was gobsmacked when she said, "Nak join angkat berat".
What the fish? O.o
Can't even stop laughing when I heard that, even now.


5. My anak buah-buahan.
Forgot her name, sorry.


6. On the 2nd day of raya.
The sister, cousin (Marina) and I have watched a movie and of course, ka-la-oke.
Ahh, it has been ages since my last movie.
Chose Final Destination 5 but ended up watching Hantu Bonceng.
(A free movie after all, Marina's treat!)

Taken this pic at the ka-la-oke place.
(Still, not a raya pic at all, even the raya feeling is off)
Tak rasa macam raya langsung!


7. Choc Fudge & Classic Cheese Cake.
Quarter's meal & Chicken Salad.
At Kenny Roger's.
(Looking at this pic makes me famished!)

When we got back home, we off to go beraya pula.
Damn tiring.
But I'm still happy coz my tum tum was fulled with a good food!
And a good times.
But minus a financial woe comes afterwards.
There goes my duit raya outta my wallet~


8. The persons on these three pics are the people I miss the most.
The cousins and my anak buah-buahan(s).
Lina, she's now pregnant and the ETA is on this month.
Maybe by a week or two.
So, she can't come to Malacca and stayed in KL with her hubby.
Ahh, can't wait to see my new anak buah!

These two pics are taken on Lina's wedding day.
And her bridesmaid was me.

Oja, my lovely sweet cousin.
And oh she's pregnant too.
Have two cute kids- Zahid & Zawiyah.
Adore them!

Look how cute they are!
Haven't got a chance to meet them on raya.
Since I was busy went out for outing.

I miss you guys to bits!

Will put same caption later.
Nampak sgt pemalasnya~

(Done putting some captions!)

They say the factor of jovial on Raya is an age. Maybe, it's merely I'm too old for jollying my raya(?) And I for one couldn't disagree their words. Especially when those kids asked a duit raya from me. Damn them! Am I look really old? Hey, everyone said that I look like budak lepasan SPM tau?! Heh.

Anyhow, SHRMZB!
Lotsa loves,



The differences between men and women.
F yeah.